Boys

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Let the count down begin

It feels like we just did it, and yet here it is again. So far so good, but he's only been gone a few days so I really don't deserve a pat on the back yet. Last time I was so sad that first week, like I would cry randomly, a lot. This time not so much. I don't know if it is because I am no longer a "boot" wife,  and I've been here before. I feel as used to the distance as one can in this situation.  Time will tell :) . The thing about it is, I will probably look back at this post in a few weeks and be like, what the *** was I thinking, this SUCKS haha but right now we are rockin' it. It probably helps that I got a facetime date with J. That was awesome, last time around we didn't the whole 7 months and this time around we did only a few days in, I hope that continues! :)

Sometimes I think about how our life would be different if I worked too. I think about all the "things" we could have and wonder if I should; especially on days were andrew is driving me crazy and I haven't talked to an adult all day. I think getting out of the house would be awesome, do something that I enjoy, help others, blah blah blah. Then I think about everything that I miss, and having to actually drop Andrew at daycare and how hard that would be for me. I couldn't do it, at least not while hes so little. Some days its hard, as a lot of you know, but I am so grateful to be a stay at home mom. I am grateful for Joel, and how hard he works so that I can be here. I am grateful he never complains. I dont think he really understands how hard it is ;) but he never complains about having to support us on his own, just reassures me that this is where I should be; at home takin' care of babies while my sugar daddy saves the world.