Saturday, November 17, 2012

Let the count down begin

It feels like we just did it, and yet here it is again. So far so good, but he's only been gone a few days so I really don't deserve a pat on the back yet. Last time I was so sad that first week, like I would cry randomly, a lot. This time not so much. I don't know if it is because I am no longer a "boot" wife,  and I've been here before. I feel as used to the distance as one can in this situation.  Time will tell :) . The thing about it is, I will probably look back at this post in a few weeks and be like, what the *** was I thinking, this SUCKS haha but right now we are rockin' it. It probably helps that I got a facetime date with J. That was awesome, last time around we didn't the whole 7 months and this time around we did only a few days in, I hope that continues! :)

Sometimes I think about how our life would be different if I worked too. I think about all the "things" we could have and wonder if I should; especially on days were andrew is driving me crazy and I haven't talked to an adult all day. I think getting out of the house would be awesome, do something that I enjoy, help others, blah blah blah. Then I think about everything that I miss, and having to actually drop Andrew at daycare and how hard that would be for me. I couldn't do it, at least not while hes so little. Some days its hard, as a lot of you know, but I am so grateful to be a stay at home mom. I am grateful for Joel, and how hard he works so that I can be here. I am grateful he never complains. I dont think he really understands how hard it is ;) but he never complains about having to support us on his own, just reassures me that this is where I should be; at home takin' care of babies while my sugar daddy saves the world.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

A day with Drewby

I find I am forgetting to document what Andrew is up too, and that I am forgetting when he starting doing something new. So here I go documenting away; mom brain is a very real ailment!

At your 15-month well baby you weighed 26.3 lbs and were 31.5 inches long.

Your eyes are still blue, but getting more green/grey everyday.

You have been waking up at about 5:30 despite me stretching bed time back an hour. I dont go get you till 630-7 though. We get up with the sun baby boy! So you might as well sleep! ;)

Then we have a cuddle with some milk watching Mickey Mouse Club House. Your favorite part is the hot dog song.

 You are starting to get picky about what you eat. You used to eat whatever I gave you, now there are things you wont eat at all. Silly babe :)

Your favorite foods are cheese, milk, goldfish, turkey dogs, chicken nuggets, mandarin oranges, grapes,   animal crackers, jammy sammys, and fruit snacks. You refuse to eat pasta, sauce or no sauce you wont eat it anymore.

Nap time is getting hard, sometimes he seems like he is ready to transition to one nap a day, but most days he needs two. We are having a hard time of it. When you do sleep you need your passy, your blanket and your Simba lion. And when I go and get you from your crib you hand each one to me before you will let me pick you up.

You love to be outside, now that you can walk we can go out a lot more. You also love stairs, it is one of your favorite things to do; at our house or at the playground.

Whenever you hear an airplane or a helicopter you point it out to me, even if we are inside where you can not see it.

You also of course still love dogs. Rufus is still your best buddy, you are always giving him hugs.

You are saying new words everyday. Mama, Dada, Rufus, see, car, yes, cheese, go, and I am sure there are more. You talk a lot, I just dont know what you say :)

You love to give hugs and kisses. You are always hugging your friends. You love babies, whenever you see one you make sure I know by pointing at it and gesturing for me to go with you to look. Someday you will be such a great big brother. :/

You love to carry around a picture of daddy we have in a frame. It is so sweet, and also heart breaking to see you kissing your dada. We miss him, but I am so happy you know him in pictures.

You love to wave at people, especially when we are on base. For some reason you wave at men in uniform! ;) You are so friendly and smile at everyone. Sweet boy

You love to take a bath. After dinner I say, "ok, lets go take a bath!" and you smile and talk and run to the bathroom and stand in front of the tub like ok lady put me in already! :)

After bath, we get you in your jammies, and read books. Somehow you already manipulate me into reading more than just one. You love to turn the pages and point at the pictures.

You are a champion at bed time. I turn on your music, lay you down, tell you I love you, and leave.

Sometimes about a half hour after I put you down, I hear your music start again on the monitor. You are a champion self soother!

I always check on you before I go to sleep, and I always want to scoop up your adorable little sleeping self and squish you, but I dont; belive me, it takes a lot of self control!

I love my little toddler boy. :)

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

You know youre old when...

You think to yourself "wow, why are they texting me so late wanting to hang out!?" and its only 7:00.

You spend a ridiculous amount of money on anti-wrinkle cream...

You go to the grocery store needing to get five items...and forget two of them...

Yup, definitely getting old. Also my baby is now a toddler...its like it happened overnight, I looked at him today and it hit baby, just a big boy in his place. :/

Joel has been gone a sucks. The mind is an amazing thing, I have forgotten how terrible this was the first time but now that it is happening again I remember, oh yea, this SUCKS. And its only the beginning. BAH!!

At least this time around I get Drewby snuggles...those are the best. :)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Bump in the Road

My working out has been put on hold. Haven't been able to since last thurday and I already feel the lard building back up in my body. I went for a walk today and that helped a little but I really would like to get back  into it. I was given the go ahead for thursday and I really can't wait. One week off and it feels like I am starting from square one. Boo.

 Being a military spouse surely has its negatives; but I have met some of the most wonderful people and made the best of friends. Joel is out of town and I don't know what I would do without the support I have from friends who feel a lot like family. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for everything.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

3 years

Thats right, three years of wedded bliss. I feel like so much has happened in those three years that it has to be more like five or six because we couldn't possibly squeeze everything into just three.  Joel graduated from flight school, we got married, moved to california, , bought our first house,went through our first deployment and had our first baby.I think of these three years, he has been home for half of that. This year Joel is of course not home (we are 1/3 on him being home for this day), but he made sure I knew he was thinking of me. He sent me pink chocolate covered strawberries, a huge teddy bear (that Andrew loves!) and red roses, but best of all he wrote the sweetest note to me. Marriage is not easy. My parents made it look easy, so I have had to readjust my expectation, not in a bad way, but in a we are getting to know each other and what we need way. We are a work in progress. We are not perfect, and of course have had our ups and downs. As my love said in his note to me, I too would do it all again. He is my protector and my confidant. I am so proud of his accomplishments. I hope my Andrew gets his brains because he is so smart. :) Mormons get married quickly, so I think we have to figure things out in the first few years of marriage, what most figure out in the first few years of dating but I wouldn't change a thing. He is the only one who will ever know everything about me, and I wouldn't trade that for anything.

So heres to many more years with you my love; I want to be in like with you forever.

I ran 4 1/2 miles without stopping today. Not even for water (which I usually do). I use the word run liberally because it's really more of a jog; I am slow, and I am ok with it. Running used to feel like a chore, like oh great, why the heck am I doing this to myself again? Now, it is my sanity. It gets Drewby and I out of the house for an hour or so, and it is so awesome to feel healthy. I probably don't look a whole lot different on the outside, but I feel 100 times better on the inside so I don't even mind. I don't cringe when I walk by a mirror because I know at least now I am trying. Maybe tomorrow I will get a picture of Drewby and I on our daily outing. :)

Little man got a hair cut today. Its technically not his first, but it was his first at a real Barber shop and she actually cut enough hair so you can tell. He looks so much older! My baby is turning into a little boy, and he is so handsome! :)

I don't want to brag or anything, but my husband is kickin' butt at WTI (like top gun for helo pilots). He always worries and says he isn't prepared but he always is, and this is no exception. He works so hard and it pays off because HES THE BEST COBRA PILOT IN THE WHOLE WORLD. And no I am not biased and that is a 100% totally true real life FACT. :) I guess it makes it a little easier for him to be gone if I know he is being AWESOME. He also may get to come home for one night this week, and that would literally make my life.

Now for a photo dump. Don't worry, I had over 300 to choose from so you really are lucky you only have ten! :)

Milk, blankets, passy, daddy, what more could you want?

Joel and his mini-me

cute boys on vacation

All done mom! :)

Family photo right before daddy left for Yuma, drewby wanted to go with the boys :)

I have teeth and I am adorable! 

harassing the dog is one of his favorite activities, he is laughing not crying

cutest baby ever sporting his awesome new jams

again poor Rufus, but this is one of his favorite things to do

 My big boy with his big boy haircut! And a frozen yogurt after haircut face!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Really, its only been 1 week??

1 week down, 7 more to go...and then I get a few days and then he's gone again, this time for a full deployment. BUMMER.

On a happy note, Andrew randomly takes steps. Not walking, but at least he's trying now! Silly boy, he is 14 mo old and doesn't walk yet! I guess I shouldn't be surprised he's always been a late mover. He does however have a hilarious speed crawl, I really need to get it on video before he stops doing it. Sometimes I can't believe how big he is, he is looking more and more like a little boy not a baby, and its a little sad. It's also a lot of fun. He has such a great little personality. He also still takes two naps a day...which is awesome! :) He has always been such a great sleeper, thank goodness! I have been spoiled, the next one will probably be the worst sleeper ever and I wont know what to do with myself!

On a workout note I am doing really well! I have lost 7.5 lbs and 2 inches off my tummy, 1 inch on each of my thighs and 1/2 inch off my arms! A little exercise goes a long way! I do 5 days a week, and a mix of running and workout dvds. I also have not been dieting, but watching what I eat and not snacking at night and it has made all the difference. I just feel so much better, inside and out! :)

This week I decided I needed a little pick-me-up in the form of retail therapy. :) I bought myself pink glitter Toms, two sparkly sweatybands, and a Run To Remember hoodie and shirt. I might have gone a little overboard but I couldn't resist. I justified the sweatybands and Run to Remember gear because I have been consistently running and am always running out of clean workout clothes. And also because Run To Remember is an awesome cause! This is what their fb page says:

wear blue: run to remember is a national running community that serves as a living memorial to the service and sacrifice
 of the American military. Our goals are to act as a support network, create a living memorial, and bridge the gap between the military and civilian community. 

Visit our website at to learn more.

For the Fallen, For the Fighting, For the Families!

Love! :)

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

How goes it

I have been asked how the insane challenge is going, and honestly I am not following the "rules". A friend and I just do it a few times a week and then I run with my good friend BOB on the days I don't do it, and today I did both! I AM A CHAMPION! I have also had like 50-billion gallons of water...ok not that much but WAY more than I usually drink and believe me, my bladders working out too. I have also been off diet coke for 4 days now. It has been terrible, but I am still alive and so is andrew so I guess all is well. :) I am keeping track of my measurements and weight, both of which are pretty depressing but at least I am trying. I still have 7lbs of baby weight and 10 lbs of marriage weight. Really tho, I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin, I want to be healthy. So heres to a few good weeks and for the rest of forever.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012


Tomorrow starts insanity...the workout program. Some girlfriends and I are starting tomorrow and I am really excited to finally have some workout buddies! I seriously have work to do, like 30 lbs of work. Now don't you DARE say anything like "no you don't" or ,"oh my gosh there's no way you have that much to lose", because I am telling you there is. If i want a healthy, fit body I need to lose 30lbs of FAT. No joke. This is serious. Joel leaves for WTI on Sunday for 8 weeks, and I am giving myself those 8 weeks to lose 20 lbs. I know I can do it, I just need to DO IT! Yes I am motivated and this WILL HAPPEN! :)

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Andrew Miles

    I am grateful for you, Andrew. You are the tester of my ever dwindling patience, the giver of sloppy wet open-mouthed kisses. The destructor of my home, and master of unfolding laundry. No one else can melt my heart and simultaneously drive me mad. I can not say, sweet boy, how much I have grown since God blessed me with your life. Being your mother is not always easy; I am not perfect, but know that I will never work as hard to be at anything else.
    I hope I can be everything you need, I hope I can teach you to be a good man. I hope I can teach you to love others, have empathy for them, to embrace difference, but know who you are and where you are going. I hope I can  instill in you a respect for your country, and the knowledge that you come from a line of American heros. Heros who were and are willing to sacrifice everything. I hope you live with passion, learn to embrace your trials. Be strong, in who you are and what you stand for; whatever that may be. I hope you know the world is yours for the taking, that with hard work and faith your dreams can come true.

I hope you know how loved you are, but it's ok if you forget, because I will never stop showing you.

Again, my sweet boy, you are my greatest gift.

Thursday, August 23, 2012


Ever have one of those days where you are this close to going over the edge, bat s*** crazy?? Today was that day for me, my child screamed off and on all day, nothing I did was write or helped and I never knew what he wanted. Those who know my Andrew know that this is very a-typical behavior; so I know something is wrong, but I still found myself getting so frustrated with him. Then of course feeling terrible because obviously something is wrong, but still on the verge of losing my mind because some of the time he is acting totally normal. The past week has been a little off because he cut his two front teeth, was running a fever all weekend, and has not eaten like normal. I chalked all that up to the teeth, but now he's got a rash so I think it might be more. Poor baby and I will be taking a trip to the doctor tomorrow. He is sleeping now, thank the good Lord. I feel terrible for almost losing it...especially if we go in tomorrow and it is more than just teeth. BLAH This motherhood thing is hard. ;(  How do you ever really know if you are just over reacting or something really is wrong?? BLAH BLAH BLAH

On a happier note, I have lost 5lbs, so I am celebrating my terrible no good very bad day by ordering Papa Johns...counterintuitive you say? I just don't care.

Monday, August 20, 2012

August in a nutshell

I know I know, it's been a long time since my last post; in my defense I have been busy. I visited family in VA while joel was training out of town. It was nice for my family to get to know Andrew, I love California but it is hard being so far away, especially when it comes to Andrew.  He had so much fun getting spolied by everyone that when we got home I pretty much had to retrain him, haha!  It is nice to know that my little boy is so loved by so many people. :)

Here are pictures from the past month or so.

Yay!!!! :)

He was not feeling well and didnt really want anything to do with this cupcake

sweet baby sleepy face

such great uncles this little boy has :)

he found a cookie and was really happy about it :)

Andrew and g-man

uncle ian and little drew

my dad loves the marine corps!

My andrew in his big boy cowseat! :)

eats like a big boy with a plate :)

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

My sweet baby Drew is One!

My sweet baby boy turned one yesterday. It is amazing how fast this last year has gone, and yes everyone says that but it really is true. It feels like just yesterday I was awake all night and feeding him all day. I am not going to lie, brand new baby was not my favorite stage in Andrews life. I was tired all the time, alone all day. Giving so much and receiving nothing but poop and crying.  Dont get me wrong, I loved my little snuggle bug, but life was hard. Those first few months were the longest, I dont really think I had postpartum. but I cried a lot.  As he got older, and started smiling and cooing things got better; now I love (almost) every minute with my little monster.  He has such a happy disposition, he sleeps like a champ, is hardly every grumpy, loves his mama and daddy, and pretty much everyone else. He might not have been planned, but he sure is my greatest gift.

Here are a few pictures over the last year.

Brand spankin new :)

2 weeks old

One month

6 weeks, my super baby

2 months, Joel was so proud of himself for getting him to fall asleep

3 months

4 months

5 months

5 months, my happy boy

6 months

8 months

10 months

My cute little bug at almost 12 months

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Once again

USMC    1,000,000,000
Courtney 0

Once again I got my hopes up about getting my husband to myself for a full 4 days (for an out of town wedding), and once again the Marine Corps wins this one. I don't even know why I continue to try to plan anything. I found out my plans were crushed two days ago and needed some cool off time. I know it is not J's fault. I know he doesn't say "please schedule me for my flights when my wife wants me to go out of town with her!!" but that knowledge doesn't make it sting any less.  Once again my life and everything I do revolves around his schedule. I cant have 4 days. FOUR FREAKING DAYS. 

So what do I do? I will continue to go see movies by myself, eat dinner alone, be a single parent 6 days a week all while keeping a smile plastered on my brace face.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Photo Dump...again

Cutie Pootie! :)

Daddy and Andrew at the San Juan Mission

Momma and Andrew

Huge fan of the grass! :)

I love this little pout-y face! :)

I found this little monster standing in his crib for the first time last week.

Sleepy Andrew boy

The boys gettin in some cuddle time

Thursday, June 7, 2012

The only thing I can change:

My attitute.

I had a great day with my bestie today full of Panera soup and painting pottery; just what I needed. I woke up grumpy due to my metal mouth and was in great need of some Kelapy (kelli therapy).  I can not say enough how greatful I am for my girl friends out here on the West Coast. I would most likely need to be medicated (haha-ish) if it wasnt for the talk therapy and burden sharing with my friends. My wise Kelli shared a few words of wisdom that I need to incorporate into my thinking.

Expect less. Give more. 

Four simple words. Simple words that can have a profound impact on how I choose to react to situations that are out of my control. It is of course, easy to to lose perspective.  I need to give more. I need to think of others first.  Such a simple concept and yet so hard to remember.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

D day

Why yes...I did just eat 6 fruit by the foot snacks. Why you ask; because tomorrow I once again join the brace-face club. For the next 10-12 months I can no longer eat "sticky" foods. Those fruit by the foot were the only things I could find in my house that are on the "do not eat" list, and as I do not have the car tonight I could not go and splurge on something I really wanted so the fbtfs would have to do.

I can not say I am excited about once again having a mouth full of metal, but I am however looking forward to the end result.  I had braces when I was younger, and of course did not wear my retainers and my teeth have gotten progressivly worse over the years. It got to a point where I couldnt see anything else when I looked in the mirror so I decided it was time.

I asked Joel if he had ever kissed anyone with braces...he said no. BAHAHAHA! :) Is he in for a treat!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012


 A friend of a friends thoughts on Memorial day and the true meaning it holds for her now. I do not know this woman personally; but hers is a situation I could one day be in myself and I could only hope to endure with such grace.

For Chris: Remembering Memorial Day: I am ashamed to say that there was a time in my life that Memorial Day signaled the start of summer, the first weekend at the beach ...

Monday, May 21, 2012

dc and kisses

Once again I eat dinner by myself watching The Big Bang Theory. I use diet coke and chocolate kisses to drown my loneliness. The only person I've talked to all day is the guy at the bike shop where I had my flat BOB tire fixed this afternoon.  Sometimes I wonder what the heck am I doing with my life?

Oh that's right, drinking diet coke and eating chocolate while watching hilarious sitcom reruns. Do you hear that? It's my brain cells wasting away from lack of use; I must change this. I have so much free time, (after Andrew goes to sleep of course) I need to find something productive to do with it.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Fresh Bligity-blog

New snappy fresh look. Only took me FOREVER to find something I liked well enough to actually use. And who knows, I might decide I dont like it tomorrow. After all, I am a women. My likes/dislikes change daily. KEEP UP :)

Also I am deeply saddened by the Greys finale. First, I loved Lexi! Second I have to wait till next season to know what the heck happens to all the rest of them! HATE THAT!

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Monday Blues (yes I know its Tuesday)

I have a confession; and I am not ashamed! Sunday night my little adorable, angelic, baby decided it was a great idea to wake up screaming multiple times from about 2am to 430am and then to wake up for the day at 530. This does not make for a happy mama. Needless to say I was G-R-U-M-P-Y, like seriously I was on the edge and looking over! I had to take Joel to work at about 630 and on the way back home Andrew's adorable baby noise from the back that usually makes me smile was driving me crazy! I knew I had to do something or it was going to be a terrible day for both of us. For those of you who aren't from around here, the base where we are stationed just got a spankin' new MCX and in that MCX is a....dunkin donuts. No, I did not give in and get a billion donuts, but I did get ...(no judgement from those who don't do this, but if you do judge I don't care) a large moca latte lite and it was AWESOME. Just saying I was a happy lady about 20 minutes after that first sip. This is not a regular habit of mine, I have actually never had a latte in my whole 25 years., but on this Monday morning I found myself wondering....Why the heck not?!

 Now enjoy some adorable monster pictures. :)

Don't die! He is this cute! :)

Diet Coke Baby! (NO i don't actually let him drink it, duh)

Cereal bar face

What in the world can I say about this face?

Or this one!

See? Monster.